TMC: Day Six

Last night/early this morning my stomach was hurting. I think it's 'cause the laxative tea works so quickly now (since I have nothing in me, really) and creates a lot of gurgling in my intestinal tract. I had to massage and knead my ol' potbelly - which might I add, is really soft and empty feeling. I feel doughy-er than ever. I feel like the fat on my body is so empty that I could just grab it and pull it off. Weird.

I woke up with some bad stomach pain, but I massaged and sat on the can. I've read that every symptom of detox should leave with the next day's eliminations. They pretty much have. However, I am SO bored.

This cleanse is so mundane. I have to keep reminding myself I'm doing this as a detox, but I'm annoyed with how little weight I've lost and how I'm missing out on socially eating with people... I'm SO bored.

I sit. I read. I internet. I chat on the phone. I don't like to watch tv - because all the food commercials make me annoyed. I keep feeling like I just want to stop. However, I'm still detoxing. So, I don't want to just bring that to a halt. Ugh. Annoyance.

I want to just stop most of the time. It's not really painful. It's just annoying and kind of like a disturbance in my daily life. I always have to make sure I'm near a toilet because I'll either be pissing or pissing "poop" out of my butt. See, I knew this would be more of a mental thing...

My tongue keeps being gross and pasty in the morning and then clearing up throughout the day. Which makes me think: I guess I'm not really that toxic. Shouldn't I just stop tomorrow? But tomorrow (Day 7) I'll think: C'mon, T. Only three days left.

All I know is that this is really boring...